I was a kid (Slow Bass)

I didn't get comfort.
I learned control.
I learned how to stay alert.
Peace feels fake like it could hurt.
Every room I count the doors.
Every calm feels like before.
When someone calls, I pull away.
I don't believe the words they say.
I learned the hard way: what to hold.
What you don't feel warm when you grow cold.
I was a kid that didn't need much.