Medicine 2

Just something to slow down, but my mind won't stop.
It wasn't a party; it was survival.
I was trying to stay just a little while.
If you never needed something just to make it through the night,
Then don't tell me what I should have done to save my life.
I know it almost tilted me; I know it crossed the line.
But I'm still here, and that counts tonight.
It wasn't for fun; it wasn't for faith.
It was a grown man trying not to call and say.
It was medicine turned into change,